I think you’re fantastic.
And I’ve been thinking…you know how life feels complicated so much of the time? Full of so many things to think and feel and learn and shed and change and pursue and celebrate and grieve and wonder and decide?
I have this idea for making things more simple.
What if as you look at your life – which includes the Big Picture of it, as well as the minutia, like what you ate today, or how, specifically, you’ve just spent time online: what if as you look at your life, you peel away your layer of angst about not doing things as well as you know they could be done?
Wouldn’t that feel good?
I’m talking about EVERYTHING here, too. About exercise. Self care. Boundaries with loved ones. Leadership. Finances. Spending habits. Eating habits. Meditation habits. Listening to your deeper self habits. The sorts of things you say or feel or do when you’re angry, tired, or blue.
What if in ALL such things, and everything beyond, you peeled away the layer of angst you have about not doing them as well as you know they could be done?
Because here’s what I see:
You’re doing exactly what you can right now. And always. And when you’re able to do something different (“better”, to use your worldview), you will.
You are not set in stone. Oh, so far from it! The habits and “weaknesses” that drive you crazy about yourself and all the ways you haven’t matured like you’d wish; all the lessons you’ve learned already and continue to struggle with again; all the commitments you’ve made and then broken, and then committed to again and broken again and again; all the ways you know your power, yet consistently play into smallness: it’s all good.
I’ll say that again: It’s all good.
It’s all folding into your life’s story, and as you continue to wake up, you’ll see how essential all of it is. All of it! How beautiful. How important.
How your very addictions, your very “laziness” (your word!), your very blocks and griefs and fight-or-flight responses – all the ways you’re YOU, rather than like any of the people you shame-facedly compare yourself to: these things are waking you up in ways you cannot fathom.
So as you continue to wake up and you see something you’d like to do differently, take the action you’re able to take. When you’re blocked by your mind or fears or addictions from taking action at all, take no action. Seriously!
But either way, peel back that layer of self judgment. Of angst about not measuring up. Of acid in your gut about doing (or not doing) it again.
Whenever and wherever you can, peel that layer back.
You really are fantastic, and there’s nothing wrong or defective about you or your “limitations” or your differences from all the folks you admire.
You are fantastic, and I love you dearly,